Our memories do not lie in the number of selfies we take and store in our phones or the digital realm. Our lives are not meant to be spent wasted on useless numbers of supposed affirmations from friends.
It’s mean to really, really look at those who are important to us and make these fleeting moments count. No matter chaos or not, these moments always come to an end.
I never expected to feel this way so suddenly and out of the blue. I thought the worst was over, but it just seems like it was mostly just surpressed and waiting to erupt and spill over.
I had an unexpectedly overwhelming day that caught me entirely by surprise. It felt like a sneak attack, coming out of nowhere.
I started the day bright and hopeful for a new start, a change; and it felt really promising. Then evening came and things started going downhill from there. I went out with a couple of my co-workers and we shared a lot about our personal feelings and our personal lives.
We stopped by church for a bit for Holy Thursday cos they were Catholics and had already missed out on mass. Then we continued our chat before they dropped me off at home.
I got home and found my sister and her friend were still up. We chatted about my morning and my plans before I hit the shower. Only after the shower did I finally realize how exhausted I am. Not only physically but mentally and emotionally. I know for a fact that I’m an extremely strong person, but how long more can I hold on?
How do you keep smiling and pretending everything is okay when behind it all, you just want to crumble and curl up in a ball to cry?
What do you do and how do you decide when your heart wants one thing but your head tells you the other?