I’ve not been one to blog about my day for a very, very long time now. I think the last time I used to do it regularly was about a decade ago. Ten years, a decade, saying it either way doesn’t hide that it’s been a very long time now. 3650 days. 3650 days ago, daily blog rants were the trend. We were so naive and thought we were so invincible and that everyone was against us and our ideals. Those were the days, of somewhat stupidity and well, immaturity. How did 10 years go so quickly? Wow. In any case, I’ve clearly stopped the daily rants, hell, I’ve probably stopped blogging altogether. It’s a combination of laziness and, laziness really. With a dash of wanting some privacy. But today has been a mixture of both clarity and confusion, even somewhat bordering on slight turmoil. So I guess it’s an exception.
I see that look in your eyes and I know we ain’t friends anymore, if we walk down this road we’ll be lovers for sure. So tonight kiss me like it’s do or die, and take me to the other side. This could be perfect but we wont know unless we try.
Sometimes you really gotta marvel at your own person. For the first time ever I teared up and let the intensity of emotions washed over me in front of a very dear and close friend. I am not a crier by any means, and it takes a lot for me to shed tears that sometimes I question whether I am emotionally handicapped in that aspect. But it’s
comforting and reassuring to know that you have someone on your side that you can let your guard down without fear of judgement or embarrassment.
And then be okay later on in the face of the matter that caused you those tears in the first place and be totally normal and nonchalant, as if nothing happened. Where did this ability to build up such a facade come from, I have no idea. It was just as if I was another person, unaffected and standing by the sidelines looking in. The people who always appear the strongest and most unaffected are in fact weak but have no choice but to build a wall. Well it’s time to let the wall come down.
To this dear, awesome and wonderful friend, I love you and am forever grateful to have you in my life even if things don’t work out the way I wish it to. I know you only want the best for me and for me to be happy, even if reality is sometimes harsh and brutal and life is just unfair. You are and forever will be my favorite and only unicorn.