"I don’t envy you. The position you’re in, you’re stuck either way. It really sucks to be you."
H said that to me last night when I met her for dinner after work. I could only shrug and give her a wry smile. It’s definitely not the best situation to be in but I’ve just been busy living my life as best as I can.
I believe life goes around in cycles. There will be peaks and troughs. I had some of the best times of my life on the cusp of my second decade of my life and then it slowed down to a bore the past couple of years. But I think it’s gonna be my turn to shine again soon. I can just feel it and I’m looking forward to it. Most of all, I hope to sustain it, and make it even better than before..
We had a pretty frank conversation last night where I shared a lot of things I didn’t get the chance to before. Some were just painful but I’m so grateful and thankful when I look at what I have despite the missing pieces. I shared with H some of the intense conversations I had recently and they reminded me of how lucky I am still. The missing pieces would be nice to have and I hope I get them one day, but for now, I can’t deny my life has been pretty good too.
Looking ahead, hopefully I get what I want. I just do.